Jan 1

it cannot be good that i started the year sick.  spent most of the day in bed. but did manage to go to the book store in the morning and pass by cousin's place.  came back home and slept again.  i did manage to get a pic of the new tallest tower in the world "burj dubai" that i thought was pretty cool.  which i'll try to get off my phone and put in this post

i spent $200 at th book store buying a number of books, i'm hoping to go through them in the next few weeks. 

January 1

it just turned 2010 . . .a tenth of the century has just finished.  wow the last ten years have been tough for everyone, its had some great moments but a lot of really difficult times for the world as a whole. 

i'm here in my apartment in dubai, alone. i didnt feel like going out, i was hoping to be in lebanon, but even that i was not incredibly excited about.  oddly i dont feel to alone and i'm not sad or anything.  there are those i miss but apart from that i'm doing ok.  i spent a lot of today thinking about the last ten years, its a lot to think about, but on the whole i cant complain to much.  i have my health, my wits, my friends, my family . . . i'm not doing half bad. 

i'm excited about what 2010 might bring.  i'm going to try really hard to make it a great year, really enjoy it, appreciate it, and make the most of it.  i have already set one great challenge on myself, i will climbing mt kiliminjaro this aug with some of my closest friends, which i'm really excited about. 

on jan 2 i am going to the sailing club to register for sailing classes, i have been sayig i want to do this for the last three years, i'm finally going to go for ir and do it.


just had a shower, i felt it would be a good way to start the new year fresh, kind of like washing off the old and cleansing myself for the new.  did i just baptise myself? ? ? if i was a believer i would say i did.  as much as i dont believe in religion i cant totally discount all their rituals or concepts. some are just commen sense, but you would think anyone would common sense would not believe in religion to begin with. i will have to continue to think about this one, i have come to terms with my lack of faith or belief but i still question others'.   

December 31

my first order of business in 2010 will be to continue the regimen of exercise and healthy eating i began in 2009. i will slow down on the relationship front this year and take things more step by step, since the divorce i feel that i have been on a sprinting to the finish line (remarrying) which i am not even sure is the end i'm looking for and i figure before i go out and try to share my life with someone, i should focus on improving my own life, i have always said that in a relationship each person should complete themselves and not each other, but rather share of themselves with one another.  i will strive to read more and seek more intellectual stimiluation and challenge myself.

i have a good feeling about 2010.  i am really looking forward to it.  its starting with a blue moon, and though i dont believe in superstition and omens, i am going to allow myself to feel optimistic about the blue moon and start the new year in good spirits. 2009 was not a bad year, made some new friends, some that i can even see staying in my life for a long time, economically it was not great but some networking is making 2010 look positive, and i am in a relationship that is showing a lot of promise, but i still have not found what i'm looking for and will continue my search into 2010.